Just found out that my dad went on holidays with his other family, two months ago. Gee thanks for the invite, much appreciated.

• Got up early to wrap my mum’s presents. She already went out for breakfast with some of her friends.
• Went she came home we served her the cake we made and sang happy birthday. After eating our delicious cake we gave her her presents, she was so happy :)
• After all that it was about 2PM, we went to DFO to buy something for my mum and also to return something.
• Then we went to West field because my mum wanted to watch a movie.
• The movie was okies in my opinion, kinda corny. The movie went for about two hours.
• We went home, got changed and went out for dinner.
• The place we went used to be really nice with service and food, but it seems that they have kind of downgraded everything. But my mum still enjoyed it :)
• After eating we went home and opened some more presents.
• Even though most of my family was out of the country this year, I think my mum was still able to have a good day with just Nicole and I :)

27’12’11; A night with Ming, Nicole and Timmy.

• I don’t remember what I did during the day z_z
• Around 9PM Ming came over. Haven’t really catch up with my pedo bestie in a while so it was good to kick back with him.
• I like long hugs :)
• Made him photowhore with me and we watched HIMYM season six.
• Kick backed and talked until Nicole came home. Timmy also came over.
• Made a video of them, just me entertaining myself haha.
• A moth was in my room, it was massive :( Timmy had to get it out for me.
• Played games online. 
• Was going to go to Aaron’s house but he was too tired.
• Around 1AM we decided to go to Timmy’s house.
• Drove to Timmy’s, finished watching Devil. Not that scary really.
• Chilled on Timmy’s bed, so comfortable. 
• Play fighted with Ming and Timmy until tanky (timmy’s dog) scared me by barking at us, he doesn’t like violence lol.
• Played street fighter, tried owning them.
• Got to around 4AM, and Nicole and I thought we should go home.
• On the way home Ming was telling us how his little brother bought a dog, so we went to his house to see it.
• It was friggen scary ! It was a german shepherd and it was too big, taller than me when it jumped up omg.
• Couldn’t stay down stairs with the dog so we went upstairs to Ming’s room.
• Kick backed on Ming’s bed. Nicole went sleep while Ming and I stayed up talking and watching Sucker Punch - alright movie.
• Ming fell asleep watching the movie, I couldn’t sleep so I just laid in bed watching the movie until 6AM. 
• Nicole and I went home around 6:30AM, couldn’t sleep so I watched Keeping up with the Kardashians until about 8AM. 
• Finally fell asleep and had to get up at 10AM. I seriously need to get more sleep, it’s not healthy :(
• I ran out of credit :(

28’12’11; Mum’s early birthday lunch.

• Got up at 10AM, got ready and went out to lunch with my mum, Nicole, my older sister and her boyfriend. 
• Ate and sat in the restaurant for two hours just talking.
• Later on we had some early birthday cake, it was yummy.
• Took photos and had coffees.
• Went home and Carly and Dave gave out presents to mum because they will be away for her actual birthday.
• After they left, I went to sleep - was so dead !
• Woke up, Nicole already went to work.
• Watched Keeping up with the Kardashians.
• Read Cage of stars, a little creepy but an interesting story line.
• Mum was sleeping so I made dinner for myself. Proud of myself hehe.
• Watched Big Bang Theory then went on the computer to download some series’ and dramas.

You’ll leave for Queensland soon, with your new family. I’ll hardly ever see you, then again, it really won’t be any different then it is now. Hope you have a good life up there, while I’m down here picking up the pieces that you’ll leave behind. 

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I’m going to start going up to my dads house, maybe stay there for a couple of nights. I’m getting older and so is he, even though I’m still a little bitter and have some resentment, I’m going to try let it go. It won’t happen overnight - obviously, but I’ll try. Plus my little sister needs me, she needs me to teach her about the world. I hardly see her, I need her to know that I’m here for her whenever she needs me. And my new baby sister; I don’t feel a connection with her, it doesn’t even feel like we are related. Maybe if I spend some more time there, I’ll develop some sort of relationship with her.

Just got an invitation for a close friends 19th, on the day of my brothers wedding. Damn how unlucky.

Wish I could be in two places at once :(

I wish my dad would call me, even just to say hello. That would be nice.

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Haha how cute of her.

@My second family, I know you’re jelly x}

I got a new baby (half) sister.

I’m seeing my dad tomorrow, yay. I just love to feel the awkwardness of us all being in the same room. Gosh the joys of life.

/sarcasm.

I don’t want to be here. Hurry up holidays, so I can leave this place for a little while.

My dad came over today. Only for a little while. I gave him his replacement birthday present, yeahs I said replacement. It still feels awkward. I know that it’s not going to get better, at least not in three weeks.

It’s always been a little awkward, but now, I just don’t know what to do or how to act at all. Why can’t it just go back to how it use to be.

No one can change my opinion on this topic. No matter who they are or how hard they try, my opinion will still remain the same. 

In religion we have been talking about this topic for a couple of weeks, and the conversations are always the same. Because I go to a catholic school, we are taught that euthanasia is wrong. We can say otherwise but then we are given x70437047 reasons why it is still wrong. Why don’t you hear me out, actually listen instead of just giving me your opinion and what the bible states. 

My opinion on Euthanasia is that it should be allowed. Although I know my judgement is clouded by my past and the things I have witnessed. I do consider all aspects of this topic, yet I know that I honestly ignore most of them because what I have seen is all that I think about.

My personal story on this is that my aunty had MS (multiple sclerosis). I was very young so I don’t really remember much, but my mum tells me about her illness from time to time. My aunty didn’t die from her illness but it did make her so weak that she couldn’t move. She was in a wheel chair since she was sixteen because of it. Euthanasia was and still is illegal, so my aunty had to suffer instead of ending her life. She was basically starved to death and was pumped with so much drugs into her body until she was weak enough to die from it. Watching her suffer is the reason why I believe in Euthanasia, people that are in genuine physical pain should be allowed to end it if there is no other way and if they choose to. Back then there was no other way.

I know that there are other points to this topic, like the younger generation using it just because they are bored with life or feel like they don’t want to live anymore. At least that’s what I’ve learnt in class. I acknowledge these issues and many more of them but my personal experience clouds all these other points. I guess that could be seem as close minded, but I don’t care. I believe in Euthanasia.

I know that I will be judged from this post. Other people’s views will clash with mine. This is my opinion and it is made up of my personally experience, so don’t judge me for it. So yeahs just stating my opinion.